Have you not known?
Have you not heard?
The everlasting God, the LORD,
The Creator of the ends of the earth,
Neither faints nor is weary.
His understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the weak,
And to those who have no might
He increases strength.
And the young men shall utterly fall,
But those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.
- Isaiah 40:28-31
Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed;
Neither be disgraced, for you will not be put to shame;
For you will forget the shame of your youth,
And will not remember
the reproach of your widowhood anymore.
For your Maker is your husband,
The LORD of hosts is His name;
And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel;
He is called the God of the whole earth.
- Isaiah 54:4, 5
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried
into the midst of the sea;
Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling.
There is a river whose streams
shall make glad the city of God
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her,
she shall not be moved;
God shall help her,
just at the break of dawn.
The nations raged,
the kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice, the earth melted.
The LORD of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge.
Come, behold the works of the LORD,
Who has made desolations in the earth.
He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariot in the fire.
Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!
The LORD of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge.
- Psalm 46
The name of the LORD is a strong tower;
The righteous run to it and are safe.
- Proverbs 18:10
And of those 181 days, I was in my home city of Bacolod for only 73 days since this year began. That means I was in Manila for a total of 108 days in the past six months.
And I'm still here.
Well, there are legitimate reasons for my being here.
In early February my sister arrived from abroad, and I wanted to spend some time with her. As it turned out, my extended stay in Manila proved to be beneficial because our maid had a bad fall; it was good I was around to be of help to her, and to assume some of the household chores that she would normally be responsible for.
From mid February up to the end of March I was in Bacolod to prepare for my 60th birthday celebration.
But in April, I came back here because this time my sister was leaving, and again, I wanted to spend a few more days with her since it's not too often that we have the opportunity to be together.
A physical concern had also arisen, and I underwent a series of laboratory and other medical tests at the Philippine Heart Center.
I was back in Bacolod for only ten days before I needed to return to Manila the third week of May. Our maid was going on her yearly vacation, and while she was away, I kept my daughter Obedient One company... and well, I also became the person in charge of practically all "domestic affairs".
My father's home is quite a big one to look after, and it is a good thing that I had the available time (and the willingness) to do it.
Now that my daughter's maid has returned, I am just about ready to go back to my own home... again.
Deep in my heart I realize that there are many new lessons that Abba Father has prepared for me this year. He did speak to me in February that I am leaving my season of grief and loss, and I am entering my season of replacement.
Within the past few months, I have also come to understand that this time, I am no longer marking my life in terms of seasons... but by divine appointments.
Seasons come, seasons go... However, in this my 60th year, I want to be guided by divine assignments and God's appointed times.
As I evaluate the events of the past 181 days, it seems that I have been simply flowing with the tide of circumstances... sister arriving, maid having a bad fall and breaking her wrist bone, or keeping daughter company while maid goes on a vacation...
Nothing earthshaking, or substantial. It all seems so... mundane.
Even my blog posts are down to only one per month these past couple of months.
But I just have to believe that nothing is ever wasted in God's economy.
But it truly warms my heart to know that Abba, my Father has His eye on me, no matter where I am... up in the mountain, or down in the valley, God is with me.
As I write, I am sitting here at the front porch of our Manila home overlooking my father's beautiful garden. The past weeks I have tended this garden carefully, pruning bushes and cutting back the overgrowth, weeding, cutting the grass, cultivating the soil, and brushing the brick pavers to remove the algae that so quickly accumulate especially during the rainy months.
A gentle rain is falling. The atmosphere is so peaceful and beautiful.
The slender branches of the crepe myrtle gracefully dancing with the gentle gusts of wind...
A few birds have taken shelter under the eaves of the garage and are chirping merrily...
A brave bird ventures out in the lightly falling rain, perches itself on a high branch, and gives out few bird calls...
I can sense the nearness of Abba's presence.
Sometimes I approach God as King in His throne room. But right now, I sense Abba's presence as a close friend, waiting to share some things on His heart with me - friend to friend.
Moments like these are so precious to me. I've known and experienced many of them before. But these past months they have been rare.
It's my own doing, really. I've heard the invitation but instead of responding, I have often brushed it aside.
I am also aware of the inner condition of my heart. It has been heavily burdened by many concerns, but I've just chosen to shove them under the rug, so to speak.
In recent years there have been shining moments of inspiration, flashes of spiritual insight, mountaintop experiences... but now I can feel hunger pangs and a growing sense of weariness tugging at the fringes of my heart.
It feels like I've been in the valley too long. The daily-ness of it all is taking its toll on my soul. I thirst for something more... and longing to more fully experience the reality of God in my heart.
In my heart of hearts... that is where Abba Father desires to commune with me.
As Jim Richards says so beautifully: Your heart is part spirit, part soul... the real you, and it is there where your God wants to meet with you and connect with you. Your heart is like the Holy of Holies... a place of intimate worship... where God sits not on the judgment seat, but on the mercy seat. And when you come to God in your heart, you encounter grace and mercy.
This morning I sense my Father calling me back into this deep, loving, and intimate relationship with Him.
Abba is ready to fill my cup, comfort me, give the assurance that I need... but He wants me to confront the issues of my life head on by acknowledging them to Him, and turning them over to His care.
Yesterday was Shabbat, and I spent a huge chunk of time in my Father's presence. Shabbat is God's weekly provision of rest and renewal for those who are in covenant relationship with Him.
Since yesterday, God has been speaking so many words of comfort to my heart. And I want to heed His invitation to connect, to listen to His heart, to allow Him to take the relationship to a higher level, and to respond to Him.
Obviously, someone was not happy with this development. When I woke up this morning, I was in the middle of a disturbing dream... and I felt tired, distressed... but also immensely relieved that it was after all, just a dream.
Waking up to reality never felt better!
What amazed me was that at the same time I was awaking from the bad dream, I also heard a soft melody rising within my heart... the familiar voice of Kathryn Scott tenderly singing these words: At the foot of the cross... where grace and suffering meet... You have shown me Your love...
And not only that... I also distinctly heard these words:
I became aware of a battle going on in my heart... and my Abba Father was right there, confronting the enemy and silencing his lies.
He was also beckoning me to sit in His presence... here in the front garden. I brought my devotional things with me, opened my iPod, and listened to the song... As I listened I immediately knew that Abba was indeed pouring comfort into my heart, inviting me to lay every burden down... and to kiss the feet of mercy.
My Abba, You are taking me to a new level of relating to You. Not from my mind, but from my heart.
Of experiencing the truth and the reality of Your love - in my heart.
You are revealing Yourself to me as Adonai Tzva'ot... Jehovah Sabaoth, the Lord of hosts.
How awesome is that name! Your militant name... the name that says you are at war against my enemy. Out of your deep love for me.
Thank you dear Abba for speaking to me... the truth that I can wear forgiveness like a crown...
Trade my ashes in for beauty...
Receive life... for Jesus has died my death for me.
Indeed Your grace and my suffering meet at the foot of the cross!
As the first half of the year and yet another month come to an end, I share another life lesson for my 60th year.
The lesson of an exchanged life.
Be still and know that I am God, I hear the Father saying to me.
Give me your weakness, and take My strength.
Give me your ashes, receive My beauty.
Give me your anxious thoughts, your fears, receive My peace.
Wait for Me. Don't go ahead of Me.
"Wait" is really a remarkable word. In Hebrew, it literally means "to entwine, to bind together."
To wait on God is "to wrap myself around Him."
To fully trust Him and surrender, abandon myself to His care.
To wait for the deliverance that He alone will bring.
Let go of your self-effort and self-reliance.
Wait on Me... wrap yourself around Me... trust in the provision I bring... in My own way... in My own appointed time...
Wow! He's all that... and He fights my battles for me. He confronts my enemies on my behalf.
And the victory is sure!
I only have to be still.
He exchanges my weakness for His strength... my ashes for beauty... my fears for His peace and joy.
by Kathryn Scott




16 comments:
A beautiful song--never heard it and on this Monday I am laying my burdens at the foot of the cross. I love reading your thoughts and the love of our Abba is beautiful and precious.
I let His promises ring louder in my heart as I read your post this early morn. I love the verses from Isaiah 40. The same promise that guided me and gave me strength as I had that trial from my workplace and still rejuvenates me up to now...
You wrote:
"Renew is another beautiful word. It actually means "exchange."
As we learn to be patient and to wait, may we learn to trade or exchange the things of this world with the things of God. What beautiful moment on that Sunday morning to have a talk with Jesus heart-to-heart. How profound that we are called His friends when we used to be His enemies.
I'm glad that you have enjoyed a special time with your sister also. And that's how it must be...for believers of Christ to act not later but every time there is a "NOW" opportunity...So we can learn to trade the "Me" with doing things for the Lord. As time is short...
Your words always increase my faith. I pray for the Lord to always guide you, give you His gift of discernment and protection as you trade the things of the world to glorifying God instead in all things that you do. So, glory be to our good Lord! Take care sister Lidia.
We have a role to fill in this world given by God. I believe that what you are doing for the people of your concern are also a sevice to God.
God is within us no matter what we do or where we are. The point is, I can see your closeness to God in whatever you do and have online connection with him all the time. You recieved revelations concerning your life. That is so wonderful. Life with God is really exciting.
I really hope we can meet one day. Next time na uuwi ako ay mag send ko ng msg sa yo. Can you give me your email address?
Lovely, Lidia.
Be still. I feel the conviction of those words. I feel the challenge of those words. There is much that is causing turmoil in my spirit these days. Much that the Lord is uprooting. And yes, it's been a struggle as I feel the inner warfare.
But, the Lord fights for me - just as you said.
And the promise at the end of the battle? Be still...
...and you WILL KNOW God!
GOD BLESS!
This is a wonderful word, Lidia. I often am engaged in warfare and this speaks volumes to my spirit today. Thank you for being so faithful to Him and speaking the truth of His word to those who need to hear it. I often feel as if I've been to an anointed church fellowship after spending time here. :o)
I pray your medical appointments at the heart center turned out well.
The Lord bless you, sister!
Love & Prayers,
Sandy
Beautiful song, Lidia! "Wear forgiveness like a crown." Wow, that's for me. As usual, your words, attitude and love for Him inspire me. Love the pics of that flower and all the greenery! I always admire your women friendships and can't help but think what a wonderful friend you are to many.
Love you,
Mary
My friend I believe you are doing just what the Lord wants you to be doing...you are very inspiring and you may never know how many people your words encourage with your faith and love for the Lord.
The last picture really touched me - to see an opening bloom only to watch it close by mid-day. What a metaphor for all of life, especially as we seek the Father's presence. I know what it is to not pay attention to the beauty of Jesus. Certainly, he's here, but with life sometimes reeling out of control I often forget to look.
I love keeping up with you, friend. Like you, I can't believe that we're at this year's half-way point. I'm daily trusting God for the unfolding of the rest of my days. Rarely are they exciting, but they are fruitful. This I know in my heart.
Blessings and peace along the way and as you go. I love you dearly.
~elaine
Lidia,
I loved your account of sitting on your father's 'porch'... wish I were there with you :) makes me think of sitting on our heavenly Father's porch...I'm convinced that nothing can compare!
You said...
"I can feel hunger pangs and a growing sense of weariness tugging at the fringes of my heart."
I echo that! The condition of the world...particularly our America...bares heavily on my heart most days now.
I have been praying for you these past weeks. When the Lord calls us to go deeper...He has a plan. He's preparing to to Show Himself faithful and true... in the next leg of our journey. He always has a plan.
Blessings to you, my far a way friend :)
patrina <")>><
Hello Lidia, I loved reading that you are "not marking your life in terms of seasons... but by divine appointments." That I believe is the secret of being a follower of His, and finding true contentment.
You can't go wrong by doing this..
I can't imagine having a maid, wow!!
And praise God for your kindness to her in her time of need... God loves you all. xxx
Your flower that will be gone by mid-day - simply beautiful - and, though we think it's life too short - if fully ful-filled His plan for its life.
I fully grasp God as Father - but am trying to wrap my brain and heart around God as husband.
On my desk is the scripture, "The Lord will fight for you. You need only to be still" (Exodus 14:14)
As my and your champion - I understand that - and I gladly relinquish the battles to Him.
I live the ebb and flow of a challenge's journey - that there may be multiple challenges in various states of journey around me - and your words - they are the motto of my heart:
"Don't do it in your own strength, my Father says.
Let go of your self-effort and self-reliance.
"Trust Me... I'm pouring new things into Your heart.
Wait on Me... wrap yourself around Me... trust in the provision I bring... in My own way... in My own appointed time...
And I will renew your strength."
That He loves each of us like that - it wows me,woos me!
Our journey to Him is never stagnant - the moment we settle in to something wonderful and we become comfortable, He askes us to pack up our spirit tens and move higher to Him - so glad you are companion/friend on this journey with me:)
A beautiful song and lyrics Lidia! God is so good. I loved catching up on what has been going on in your life. It's always a blessing to read your words and hear your heart. I love those Divine appointments. If only we listen and ...obey.
I love connecting with you friend.
Blessings and love,
Debbie
Be still...I have found those words so valuable.
Our spirits can only be renewed if we stop and listen...
Thank you Lidia, your posts are always a blessing.
Greetings Lydj! You have such an amazing sensitivity to our Lord and I sense this will be such a wonderful year for deepening your relationship with Him. Thank you for sharing...You are like a well of water springing up bringing refreshment because you were with our King!!! Thanks bunches!
I am always richly blessed when visiting here, am always reminded of why our paths crossed. Those words "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD" have the power to keep one calm midst the most painful trials. Be Still (dont fret. Relax. Stay Focused.
And KNOW (Have not doubt, be confident), that I AM GOD (not man; nothing is impossible to Me).
I love that you love Him so much, love that your relationship is so tight. There is nothing I treasure as greatly as every day being able to have the honor of His presence, feel the warmth of His love, and experience the tightness of His embrace.
Thank you for always supporting me, especially for keeping in touch. I know you are busy, but you always make time for your friends. That means a lot to me.
Take care of yourself. We've never met but I love you with all my heart.
Soooooooooooo, have you basically quit blogging? (I know a lot of people are.)
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