Grace Walk
Walk with Me and work with Me--watch how I do it.
Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.
I won't try to lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.
Keep company with Me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly.

-Matthew 11:29-30 The Message


Hidden Treasures
One of the most satisfying aspects of writing
is that it can open in us deep wells of hidden treasures
that are beautiful for us as well as for others to see.

-Henri Nouwen in Bread for the Journey

A Modern Day Psaltery
David wrote psalms to express
what was in his heart.
Seeing no need to hide what he felt,
he wrote with sincerity, and with no hidden agenda.
What he felt was never taken against him.
Pray, dear reader, discern my heart between the lines.
Dinah Maria Craik couldn't have said it better:
"Oh the comfort -- the inexpressible comfort
of feeling safe with a person --
having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words,
but pouring them all right out, just as they are,
chaff and grain together;
certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them,
keep what is worth keeping,
and then, with the breath of kindness
blow the rest away."

Monday, September 29, 2008

Home Again, or New Wineskins

At baggage claim, upon arrival at the Manila International Airport




Nor do they pour new wine into old wineskins,
or else the wineskins break,
the wine is spilled,
and the wineskins are ruined.
But they put new wine into new wineskins,
and both are preserved.
Matthew 9:17




A final glimpse of Suvarnabhumi...

Our flight from Bangkok touched down at the Ninoy Aquino (Manila) International Airport yesterday at 2:00 o'clock p.m.

Thirty minutes before the plane landed, we experienced turbulence. Outside the window I could see nothing but thick white clouds. The captain said the turbulence was due to strong winds.

What a relief it was to finally get out of the air pockets and have a glimpse of the blue sky and soft white clouds outside the window.





Just a few minutes before touchdown...


The landing was quite smooth...just as I know everything will be eventually, as we begin the process of re-entry and getting re-settled.

Ninoy Aquino International Airport, Manila


But at this point, I don't exactly know what awaits me. Honestly, I feel like I'm always being poured off from one container to another. Barely have I settled down before it's time to pour me off again into another vessel.

I was reading a Bob Sorge book not too long ago, and he explained a passage in Jeremiah 48:11 that helped me understand what God is doing in my life. It says:

Moab has been at ease from his youth; he has settled on his dregs, and has not been emptied from vessel to vessel, nor has he gone into captivity. Therefore his taste remained in him, and his scent has not changed.

In this verse, Jeremiah is actually speaking of an important process in winemaking,

where wine is allowed to settle in a container and then is poured off into another container, while the dregs that have settled at the bottom of the first container are thrown away. If wine is not removed from its dregs, it will not ferment and mature properly but will become bitter and distasteful. The process of being poured from vessel to vessel, while unsettling, is thus absolutely necessary if the wine is to be pleasing.

God is saying of Moab that the nation is very distasteful to Him because they haven't been poured from vessel to vessel....

(An excerpt from Bob Sorge's book, The Fire of Delayed Answers)


Yes, it is unsettling, but I must accept that this is part of the maturing process - being poured off from vessel to vessel.







This is called decanting, a process of carefully moving wine from its vessel into a decanter, leaving behind the heaviest parts, such as solids or possibly, another liquid. If done correctly, the sediments and residue, also called "dregs," formed at the bottom will be left behind.

This process is said to open up the wine and allows it to breathe faster than it would otherwise. Oxygen must reach the wine for a smoother, more mellow, finish.

God is continually calling His disciples out of the comfort zone.

The question always boils down to this: Am I willing to be re-shaped and re-fashioned into the Master's redeemed version of me?

It is not easy, but my answer is always the same: Yes, I am willing.

He is constantly bringing me to deeper waters, uncharted territories, the unknown.

I've told God that I will not be known as a comfort zone, status quo, don't-rock-my-boat Christian.

I don't even mean to sound so heroic or martyr-like; I am far from being one.

It's a slow, painful process. Sometimes I have found myself wishing I could be like some Christians I know who seem to lead such predictable, comfortable lives.

But then again, no. I could never go back to that kind of unruffled existence.

If I want to mature before God as fragrant wine, then I need to be ready to be poured out again and agin, the dregs of my life being discarded, until I become the wine that fits the Master's specifications: clear, smooth, mellow.

Next, comes the important business of replacing the old wineskins...

It's good to be back home.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Farewell, Chiang Mai

On board TG125, 7:08 a.m.


Farewell, Chiang Mai...
you will always have a special place in my heart!


As I write these lines, I am on board flight TG 125 bound for Bangkok. It is 7:08 a.m.; the plane has just taken off.

From Bangkok, we will board another flight that will take us to Manila.

Our season in Chiang Mai is coming to an end.


Ernie and I finished packing our suitcases at 1:00 a.m. this morning. We also thoroughly cleaned up the flat that was our home for the past 13 months.

Our Filipino friends, Tessie, Johnny and Shayne spent some time with us on our last night in Chiang Mai. We gave them all the stuff that we were leaving behind, and prayed a specific blessing for each one of them.

We left our university flat at 5:00 a.m. Before closing the front door, Ernie and I thanked God for a lovely stay in this place. We prayed for the next occupants, that they would experience God’s peace and presence here.


The "Front Room" at our flat


The steps leading to our university flat


Greenery in front of our flat


Tessie ended up bringing us to the airport, although this was not the original plan. Johnny went with us to help us with our bags—it was so gracious and heartwarming of him to do that.

God-sent "angels" Johnny and Tessie just standing by as we checked in


Shayne came to the flat before 5, also wanting to see us off at the airport, but there was no room for her in the car because of our many suitcases.

Lori Shayne


Diana, a Filipina married to a Thai national and who works as one of the secretaries of the president, has also helped us in many ways, but she was in Bangkok for the weekend.

Ernie and me with Diana


"Best friend" Johnny


Indeed, among our greatest joys during our stay here were our Filipino friends.


Much of my mind is still numb at this point, but I know this is the best time for me to say good-bye.

Ernie, on our way to pre-departure


One last shot, just before boarding


Sunrise over Chiang Mai, September 28, 2008


Shot of Chiang Mai International Airport as Flight TG 125 taxies on runway


A few seconds before take-off...


Farewell, Chiang Mai.

It has been a good year.

When I first came a year ago, I didn’t know what to expect. But I gave God my “Yes” even though He knew I did it with reluctance... I only wanted to obey my King, believing that He knows what’s best.

And He rewarded me with such a heartwarming, unforgettable experience in this place.

Chiang Mai is a place where kindness and gentleness abound...

a place of beautiful flowers all around...

a place where people are humble, polite, helpful, and kind...

where you can have your fill of delicious Thai dishes and unique handcrafted products...

and your heart is touched by a smile on every face.

Even though we were foreigners, we have felt very safe here.

We could eat at any roadside eatery and it was OK!

Here, we have gained loyal friends.

Above all, in this place, God worked a deep healing and restoration in our hearts.

I never expected my year to turn out this way. Indeed, God is the God of surprise endings!


Good-bye for now, fair and lovely Chiang Mai. I know I will see you again someday.

I will never forget you. You will always have a special place in my heart.

This is my prayer for you as we leave you:

Father of all creation, thank you for all that You have allowed us to experience in this place. As we leave, I ask that You richly bless Chiang Mai. Pour out your abundant goodness over this place. Create in her people, and specifically in the hearts of the special friends we are leaving behind, a hunger, a thirst and a longing for You. In Your mercy, lead them to earnestly seek You, and find You. Please, dear God, lead them to the true destiny that You have planned for them.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Images of Chiang Mai

"A picture paints a thousand words."

Here are just a few images of Chiang Mai that could never be put into words.







Sitting Room at Chiang Mai Orchid Hotel


Panoramic view of Chiang Mai from Doi Suthep


Original lanna architecture in northern Thailand


A lovely nature shot in Mae Rim


Preparing Khao Soi




Cosmos flowers thrive by the wayside





View of Doi Suthep from Chiang Mai University


Kad Suan Kaew Mall


Poolside at Amari Rincome Hotel

Potted roadside flowers - a common sight in Chiang Mai




"Miniature umbrellas" - Ceiling at Lanna Cafe, Amari Rincome Hotel


Young violinist at Chiang Mai University




Patumai flowers


Preparing papaya som tam


sidewalk vendor



Dogs are such gentle creatures in this place


A tuk-tuk at the Night Bazaar







Night Bazaar




Portion of old wall at the "Old City"








Warorot Market

Sunday Market at Walking Street