Grace Walk
Walk with Me and work with Me--watch how I do it.
Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.
I won't try to lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.
Keep company with Me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly.

-Matthew 11:29-30 The Message


Hidden Treasures
One of the most satisfying aspects of writing
is that it can open in us deep wells of hidden treasures
that are beautiful for us as well as for others to see.

-Henri Nouwen in Bread for the Journey

A Modern Day Psaltery
David wrote psalms to express
what was in his heart.
Seeing no need to hide what he felt,
he wrote with sincerity, and with no hidden agenda.
What he felt was never taken against him.
Pray, dear reader, discern my heart between the lines.
Dinah Maria Craik couldn't have said it better:
"Oh the comfort -- the inexpressible comfort
of feeling safe with a person --
having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words,
but pouring them all right out, just as they are,
chaff and grain together;
certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them,
keep what is worth keeping,
and then, with the breath of kindness
blow the rest away."

Friday, March 18, 2011

We Will Dance

Heaven's Gate

by Jay Patel





Now when these things begin to happen,
look up and lift up your heads,
because your redemption draws near.

- Luke 21:38




And I heard, as it were,
the voice of a great multitude,

as the sound of many waters
and as the sound of mighty thunderings, saying,

“Alleluia! For the Lord God Omnipotent reigns!
Let us be glad and rejoice and give Him glory,

for the marriage of the Lamb has come,
and His wife has made herself ready.”


And to her it was granted to be arrayed in fine linen,

clean and bright,
for the fine linen is the righteous acts of the saints.

Then he said to me,
“Write:
‘Blessed
are those who are called to the marriage supper of the Lamb!’”

- Revelation 19:6-9 NKJV




But the day of the Lord will come like a thief.
The heavens will disappear with a roar;
the elements will be destroyed by fire,
and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare.

Since everything will be destroyed in this way,
what kind of people ought you to be?
You ought to live holy and godly lives
as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.
That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire,
and the elements will melt in the heat.

But in keeping with his promise
we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth,
where righteousness dwells.

So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this,
make every effort to be found spotless,
blameless and at peace with him.

- 2 Peter 3:10-14




When someone you love becomes a memory,
the memory becomes a treasure.

- Unknown








Today I remember Ernie in a very special way.

It's our wedding anniversary!

Thirty-three years ago, on March 18, 1978, I walked down the aisle, a glowing and radiant bride, to be wed to my bridegroom, Ernie.

We have a beautiful love story. I keep telling myself that thirty years of a beautiful marriage was much too short... it ended too soon.

Before I knew it, it was all over.

We had spent one year in Chiang Mai, Thailand, where he worked as an international consultant at Maejo University to help set up their International MBA program.

As the contract was about to end, President Thep invited him to stay for one more year, to continue what he had begun. Ernie declined the offer.

"I really want to go back home already," my husband had said to me.

We packed up our belongings and returned to the Philippines on September 28, 2008. (Read about it at Home Again, or New Wineskins).

Little did I know that that was to be the last year of our married life together. (Read Given Wings, a post I wrote on our 30th wedding anniversary which we celebrated in Chiang Mai, Thailand)

On November 23, 2008, less than two months after we returned to our homeland, Ernie did "go back home."

Back home... to his Creator. Back home... to his eternal abode.
(Read Songs of Deliverance, a post I wrote a day after Ernie went home to heaven.)



Many of my friends know that heaven is a subject quite dear to my heart. Even more so now that the man I love, the person with whom I shared my life in a very special way for thirty years, is already there.


I understand full well that the human relationships we loved and cherished here on earth will be seen in a different light in eternity.

It is often believed that there will be no marriage between a man and a woman in heaven.

I find this hard to accept.

After all, the teaching about this in Scripture isn't very clear, probably because our finite minds cannot grasp eternal realities. There is no hard and fast doctrine in the Bible that supports this view.

No one really knows for sure, except God alone.

The nature of heavenly relationships will be fully revealed to us only when we reach heaven, when we will no longer see through a blurred mirror, but we will see and understand heavenly things as they are.

So, I'll wait and see. But I truly believe that the beautiful relationships we enjoyed here on earth will not go to waste. Our meaningful relationships here shape and mold and prepare us for heaven.

When the Lord returns, He will usher in a new heaven and a new earth... but I believe that there is a sense in which heaven will be a continuation of our earthly lives.

Surely, it will be in a different dimension... far above what any human mind can conceive or imagine. Yet, I believe that heaven will not be a strange place...

And I also believe that heaven will be the perfection, the completion, of our relationships here on earth.

To anyone who has loved God, and has a heart to heart relationship with Jesus, heaven will be home... the culmination and the fulfillment of all we have ever desired, dreamed of, and longed for.

We "see" and understand heaven in an immature way because our minds cannot comprehend the beauty of this eternal heavenly place; nevertheless, you and I have been given glimpses of eternity here on earth.

Our heart knows what heaven must be like.


God intended marriage to be beautiful. Indeed, when a man and a woman marry, they enter into a covenant with one another and with God... a relationship meant to be full of depth and meaning - maturing, growing deeper, and becoming more beautiful through the years.

Marriage here on earth was intended by God to be a mirror of how God intends the relationship between Him and His people to be. The commitment, the faithfulness, the loyalty, the devotion, the submission to one another... all these are a reflection of the enduring love God has for us.

It is a beautiful picture, a foretaste of the heavenly relationship that we will be enjoying in eternity with God.

God is at the center of it all - and we will all be beautifully aligned to one another, flowing as it were in an eternal dance, where all the moves are perfect, and the music is unending!


The recent earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan, leaving in its wake untold grief, devastation, and loss of catastrophic proportions, have once more impressed this truth in my heart - the Lord is coming back for us soon.

My heart breaks as I watch the news and the videos of the massive destruction... the economic repercussions, the possibility of a nuclear meltdown...

In the midst of the intercession being offered, the truth stands out: there is nothing permanent in this life. A loved one can die, material possessions can suddenly be wiped away.

But God is our solid rock... a firm foundation.

And He has prepared a safe place for those who have put their trust in Him...

And Jesus His Son is coming back for us...

Yes, Jesus is coming back for us, the way a bridegroom comes back for his bride after he has prepared a place for her...

Heaven is the place that Jesus has prepared for those "who have been called to the Marriage Supper of the Lamb."



My husband loved to dance. He was such a graceful dancer; I, on the other hand, never learned to dance very well. But I do feel that I'm a dancer at heart; somehow I know that in eternity, I will be one!



Today as I remember my wedding anniversary, I thank You my heavenly Father, for having given me a good husband, and for giving us thirty years to enjoy life together.


I have loved and honored Ernie, and I continue to treasure the memories we have made together.


Thank you for being with me in my grieving season... and thank you for the way Your comfort and Your hope strengthened me in and through the process.


By Your grace, I am emerging from the tunnel of grief.


Thank you that out of Ernie's death, I have received new life, a deeper understanding of Your purposes, a clearer view of eternity!


And today, I am thinking of heaven in a very special way... where there will be no other God but You.


You alone will be worshiped, and adored, and You will be at the center of everything.


It will be beautiful because everything will flow, and the heavenly music will be harmonious. There will not be anything that is out of place there.


In You, all my questions will be answered.


I can only imagine what it will be like - but heaven will surely be beyond anything that I can hope for or imagine.


What a beautiful way to celebrate my wedding anniversary, Lord... by remembering that this earth is not my final destination.


Heaven is! You are!


And because I am looking forward to heaven, I can look at what is happening around me with hope, not with a sense of dread or fear.


Death is not the end, but a new beginning!


You fill my heart with rejoicing!





The song We Will Dance by Steven Curtis Chapman below will always remind me of Ernie. Our love for each other was not perfect, but it was beautiful and full of meaning.

Another song, also entitled We Will Dance by Andy Park is about the dance that we will dance and the song that we will sing in heaven, a dance and a song of rejoicing. It has always been a top favorite of mine.

Another song, I Can Only Imagine by MercyMe is another beautiful song; each time I listen to it, it inspires me to think of heaven and to respond in worship!


I have shared these three songs at the end of this post. May I invite you to stay a while, worship God with me, and listen to these beautiful songs?

(Note: Please turn off the music player at the bottom of this blog before clicking on the YouTube videos posted on today's entry.)


We Will Dance
by Steven Curtis Chapman

I've watched the sunrise in your eyes
And I've seen the tears fall like the rain
You've seen me fight so brave and strong
You've held my hand when I'm afraid

We've watched the seasons come and go
We'll see them come and go again
But in winter's chill, or summer's breeze
One thing will not be changin'

We will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We'll spin and we'll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance

Sometimes it's hard to hold you tight
Sometimes we feel so far apart
Sometimes we dance as one
And feel the beating of each others hearts

Some days the dance is slow and sweet
Some days we're bouncing off the walls
No matter how this world may turn
Our love will keep us from fallin'

And we will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We'll spin and we'll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance

The music will play
And I'll hold you close
And I won't let you go
Even when our steps
Grow weak and slow
Still I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we, will dance


We Will Dance by Steven Curtis Chapman




We Will Dance

by Andy Park

Sing a song of celebration
Lift up a shout of praise
For the bridegroom will come
The glorious one
And oh we will look on his face
We'll go to a much better place

And dance with all your might
Lift up your hands and clap for joy
The time's drawing near
When he will appear
And oh we will stand by his side
A strong pure spotless bride

We will dance on the streets that are gold
The glorious pride at the great son of man
Let every tongue and tribe and nation
Rejoice in the song of the lamb



We Will Dance by David Ruis


I Can Only Imagine by MercyMe




28 comments:

Mari said...

Lidj, this is another beautiful post on this special day. I'm thankful for the years you had together and thankful for the joy that God is returning to you at this time.
The songs you shared are perfect.

Cindy said...

Beautiful thoughts of Ernie and a beautiful reminder that this is not our real home. I'm homesick.

Colleen said...

Such beautiful songs and such a beautiful post Lidj. I haven't read something this truly lovely for a long time. I also believe our hearts know where "home" is. That our souls long for it.

I remember reading once that so many of us love to garden because somewhere deep inside ourselves, we are desperately desiring the garden of Eden.

There is a void in us that can not be filled by anything except our Lord and Father.

Praying for you today Lidj. You are a beautiful inspiration.

Katie said...

Happy Anniversary!

Saleslady371 said...

Thank you so much for this inspiring post, Lidj. I feel so close to Jesus after reading your words that I can almost touch Him. I'm dancing in the spirit with you, my friend, as we wait to meet our Bridegroom and embrace our loved ones, too!

Love,
Mary

Clint said...

What a beautiful remembrance, lidj. You are quite right---today we see thru mists, but tomorrow we shall see reality face-to-face.

Thank God you were able to spend 30 wonderful years together. God bless.

Patti Hanan said...

Lidj, This is a beautiful tribute to your husband. Your words, "Our meaningful relationships here shape and mold and prepare us for heaven" are so true. What a glorious homecoming it will be!

child of God said...

Hi Lidj,
Happy anniversary! What a beautiful heartfelt felt post. I am sad you lost your friend and husband but rejoicing you had many years together and will again when you meet in heaven.
I too believe heaven, in a way, will be an extension of our lives here on earth. It will be familiar after all we will be going to our real home for we are citizens of heaven not earth.

These are wonderful songs. Thank you for sharing them with us and for sharing the love you hold for your husband, how very bless he was to have a wife like you. Someon who loves him.

In Him,
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Anonymous said...

Lidj, So blessed to meet you here. You are a blessed and gifted woman. Reading of your love for your Ernie, of Heaven and your love for our Savior was warm and yet cool and refreshing to my soul. So glad to have visited with you today.

And thank you for stopping by The White Stone.

We will visit again.

Holy hugs, Kathie

Mining for Diamonds said...

Wow. I am speechless. This was one of the most moving posts I have ever read. I am touched beyond words!!! What a beautiful tribute to precious, sweet Ernie and the time you were blessed with on this earth. God was so good to you both. I can imagine him being the first to greet you when it is your time...and showing you around the Kingdom of Heaven. This post has truly ministered to me today. Thank you.

Janettessage.blogspot.com said...

Just beautiful! Such truth and passion shared through your walk while pointing to the Lord. I am a dancer and will enjoy dancing also in heaven.

Sandy, Sisters of Season said...

Dearest Lidj, I can echo every word you wrote on this post . . how beautifully said. I know that love between you and Ernie . . so deeply in my heart I can feel it. My heart goes out to the people in Japan . . it saddens my heart deeply. This event is a sure sign of the Lords coming soon and I'm excited to see my husband again and yes I'll dance with him again. Lots of blessings to you my dear friend, Sandy:O)

Diane said...

Dearest Lidj, my heart is with you as I so much understand your pain and your joy. Just over two short months before Terry went home, your Ernie went to be with Jesus. I like to think that they are somehow connected in heaven,not only because they both trusted Jesus, but also because He has connected our hearts here on earth. I also don't understand a lot about heaven and I agree that it is because our finite minds cannot comprehend the eternal. I do believe that the love Terry and I shared here has now moved into eternity and can't help but believe that we will, in some fashion, recognize that love when re with the Lord together. Thank you for such a beautiful post.

Many hugs..........

Diane

Rebecca said...

Words escape me to express myself after reading this post. May goodness and mercy continue to follow you all the days of your life.

Our daughter spent 3-4 days at Samaritana (not sure of spelling) a beautiful complex that ministers to women who have escaped sex trafficking. Are you familiar with it? I think they went into the "red light" district of Manila one night...they are right now on retreat with those women in Laguna. Next week they'll be leading a Bible school for over 400 children.

Leah Adams said...

Happy Anniversary, Lidj. I believe that while our heavenly relationships will not be the same, they will be exponentially deeper and greater than anything we experienced here on earth.

Peace to you, my friend.

Nikki (Sarah) said...

wow Lidj...this is beautiful...what a great tribute to your husband...and to your creator...your post gives me chills...and the words to we will dance....awesome. Your post reminds me...life as we know it is not forever but with Him...we will live a new life forever and you and Ernie...will be reunited and dance with Him. Tons of hugs to you Lidj....your strength...your courage...always inspires me.

Angel Luli said...

Sister dear, I have not experienced the grief that you have gone through in life. I have oftentimes been told that losing a spouse is the greatest grief among the travails experienced by man life. As you celebrate what would have been 33 years of marriage, I pause in silence and prayer before God to remember the blessings of giving me a good brother and how dedicated a husband Ernie was to you so much so that his love for you left so much vacumm which is a natural feeling for any human soul.It is my prayer that our God of comfort provide for your every need, enable you to overcome. "May the JOY of the Lord be your strength"
"Love is something eternal…The aspect may change, but not the essence."

Love always,

Your loving sister

Angel Luli said...

Dearest sis--

I wanted to add this to my earlier message to you which can be found in this song. I do not even know the tune but I am sure the lyrics will be encouraging to you.

It is my deep prayer that soon you will completely overcome your grief. I know it is a process that will take its form in this manner:


Oh, the bitter pain and sorrow
That a time could ever be
When I proudly said to Jesus
"All of self and none of Thee."

Yet He found me; I beheld Him
Bleeding on th' accursed tree;
And my wistful heart said faintly,
"Some of self and some of Thee."

Day by day His tender mercy,
Healing, helping, full and free,
Brought me lower, while I whispered
"Less of self, and more of Thee!"

Higher than the highest heavens,
Deeper than the deepest sea,
"Lord, Thy love at last has conquered:
"None of self and ALL of Thee!"
--Theodore Monod


Thank you for your life example and perseverance in your faith on the Lordship of Jesus in your life. You have been an encouragement to me, your loved ones and friends. May God continue to bless you more and more and provide for your every need! I Jesus name I pray. Amen.

With much love,
Your beloved sister

Tammi said...

Dear Lidj,
Thank you for leaving a sweet comment on my blog. That led me to yours! I'm so thankful too. Because I want to tell you I'm thinking of you today, on this special day, and your memories of Ernie.
I once heard someone say something after my sister passed away unexpectedly at the age of 22~ Dr. Erwin Lutzer on a radio program-- he reminded us of the rich man and Lazarus and how the rich man remembered he had 5 brothers and he didn't want them to come to the place of torment. Pastor Lutzer's point was this: how much more do our loved ones who have gone on to heaven love us, even more completely, perfectly--because they are with God, Who IS Love. And oh how much they remember their relationships as they had them on earth! Why wouldn't they? If the rich man in torment remembered and was concerned for his 5 brothers (he was specific) then surely our loved ones remember us, and who we are to them. ! :) That brought me such hope and comfort to know that Sherri remembers me, cares for me, and loves me even more NOW than she ever could while on this earth. And so, my dear sister, Ernie still loves you, but more perfectly and completely, and he remembers you as his wife.
Sending you a big hug!!
In Christ,
Tammi

steveroni said...

LIDJ!
There simply are no words which could convey to you my thoughts concerning your most beautiful of blog messages.

March 18, the day I began to shed my old life

March 18, the day your began your new life--with Ernie.

If there is no other closeness, there is this--March 18 is a day neither of us shall ever forget.

On future Anniversary Dates I shall always (could never forget what you just shared) think of you walking down the aisle to meet with your man...along with my own Joys of freedom from alcohol and drugs.

I love your descriptions of heaven, and that picture (way up top!) is positively gorgeous!

Thank you for commenting on my blog today, which brought me to the tranquility, the peacefulness of your words--and music tonight!

Bless you, LIDJ! And Love, from
Steve E.

steveroni said...

Hey Lidj, I started of with "...there are no words" and THEN look what happened, I could not stop the flow. But God understands!

My word verification here is "drunc"
FUN-NEEE!

Anonymous said...

Beautiful anniversary tribute. 30 years holds so much to rejoice about.

It does confuse me and my mind cannot grasp that there will be "no marriage in heaven" which seems in direct contrast to Genesis 2:24 about a husband and a wife, 2 becoming one. How does one suddenly become 2? In heaven?

I agree that we just cannot fathom. However, I trust. I so trust!

Felisol said...

Dear Lidj,
I have read through your blog post several times. I often do so, before I leave a comment.
My thoughts of heaven are much similar to yours.
No tears, so sorrows, no parting, no pains.
Like you think of dancing, I imagine singing (I love music, but I cannot sing a pure tone).
I think Maestro Handel will conduct the Hallelujah Choir, and it will sound like the roar of thousand falls.
I am so looking forward to that particular event.

We will live in another dimension, and I do not think it's given me to understand how and where.

I did discuss eternity and heaven with the person I miss the most in my life; my Dad.
I got to follow him to the threshold, it was both extremely painful, but also meant the end of his sufferings.
The last hours, when there only were the two of us left, I read loud over and over again from Rev. 21. The words are burnt into my mind.

I know i shall meet my Dad again, and I think he's not that far away now either.

Then death shall have no sting.
From Felisol

Debbie Petras said...

Lidj, I can only imagine your sadness for your Ernie. And yet, how wonderful that you WILL see him again in heaven.

After my mom died in 2005, I read Randy Alcorn's book on Heaven and it was very comforting. The Scriptures you included are so true. I think our finite minds cannot understand. But I trust the Lord and what His Word says.

I will see my loved ones and I cannot imagine heaven without animals. :)

Sending you hugs today. And btw, I turned 58 years old on February 1st.

Love,
Debbie

Afsoon and Shapour said...

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Would you like to visit my weblog which I created about 5 months ago?

My husband and I are Iranian and live in the UK. We love Jesus and our weblog is mostly about our Lord. Since we are Iranian we have added some Persian topics to the weblog, but you can read and watch English ones.

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God Bless,

Afsoon

RCUBEs said...

I always believe that every part of our journey here will have some value when we all go Home...May your beautiful and loving memories with bro. Ernie always keep you strong, along of course with the Lord's love.

I love the songs you had shared. Whenever we sing song no.2 at church, it is always so full of joyful mood, my heart is always trying to grasp the beauty of His love and like what you said, it is indescribable of what is to come...

Sister Lidj, of course, you are a great encourager to me and I feel your prayers. Thank you for always keeping me in your prayers. Whatever they threatened at work by these 3 people, did not happen. Now, I wonder if they are scared because once my charge went to them, they have a lot of explaining to do! Because of the Lord, I am not afraid! Someday, in His perfect time, when this battle is over, if He wants me to write about it, I will be so excited to share it with you and among other brothers/sisters in Christ who are there for me, fighting with me. I am so blessed to have you all in my life. I thank the Lord in all of this. God bless you sister and shine ever brightly for the Lord!

Deborah Ann said...

In the book "The Call" by Rick Joyner, he talks about a vision he had in which he was transported to heaven. From what I gathered from his book - there will be friendships and relationships in heaven, but the marriage is between us and Jesus.

Perhaps for now, on this earth, husbands are the shadow of what is to come - our bridegroom Jesus.

There is so much unknown about the heavenly realms. I guess that's where faith comes in...

Anonymous said...

Dear Lidj,
I can't seem to find any words beyond what's already been said. My heart both breaks and rejoices with you. I want to learn to let go and dance with my Saviour, and to love Him more than life itself. So much on this earth seems beyond our grasp and understanding. So much of the perfection we long for is left imcomplete... and so we wait.

Waiting on the Lord with you...